Philosophical question, really- who do you please?
I’m sure most of us have had this internal debate with ourselves, at least once in our lifetime. Some of us probably have this debate every month! Given scarse resources, we cannot please ourselves and others. If we’re lucky, at least we have the luxury of prioritising whom to please but more often than not, this is not the case. To please ourselves first, seem as-if we’re selfish / self-centred and this is against our primitive need for community living. But to put other’s wants before ours will eventually make us disgruntled. Some wise person would say “there needs to be a balance” – who decides the balance? For sure, I suck at this, as I tend to swing to both extremes.
In a previous post, I wrote about my ”challenge” with acceptance into my not-so-new community. More than 6 months on, I’ve now realised that no matter what I do to make myself more acceptable, I’m fighting a losing battle. Recently I faced a situation, where I needed to make a decision, which would affect members of my not-so-new community. I’m sure there were 10 opinions on how I should decide and I tell ya, its a no-win situation for me… no matter which way I decided, I’ll still end up the loser. While analysing this situation, I wrongly started out with the thought of whom I should please, to ensure “safe passage” through this “rough seas”. It was fast becoming a political maneuver, of which I had the upper hand, because I was the decision-maker. Call me naive but I dislike such politicking / strategising, life is hard enough, there’s no need to make it harder. So in the end, I decided based on what I thought was best for the whole community. I was very careful to ensure that there was no hint of favoritism, which was easy to do as I have no favorites.
I was feeling pretty good about my decision and particularly proud of the way I handled the situation. I was naively confident that everyone who saw my decision would see it as I did – fair. But my faith in my community has eroded, as I’ve since come to know that there are a lot of dissatisfaction and rumours and gossips behind the scenes on the decision I made. These rumour-mongers chose to pick on those bits which were not in their favour, while keeping numbingly silent about the ones favouring them – work of Small Minds. My initial reaction was to defend my decision and carefully explain my thought process in arriving at the decision. But I stopped myself short – why did I have to explain myself? No one else is required to. And anyway, those who dislike me would not give me the time to explain myself, or even if they did, I hardly think my explanations would sway their thoughts of me.
And so, that’s how I came to the conclusion that I cannot please everyone and it’s easier to please myself. Someone wise once told me – ” Some people will like or dislike you, no matter who you are or what you do or don’t do” - there’s no logical explanation for this, it’s just one of those things in life.
Now, after months of agonising over this lack of acceptance, I’ve come full-circle and am contented with my current state of mind. At least it’s an end to the endless debates with myself. There is no right or wrong answer, as long as I can sleep peacefully at night.
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